the attempt

 

 

okay im posting this first picture cause i find birth to be so fasinating. look at that belly shape with the contraction.
i know my time is limited so i will try to be brief with the labor story.
i awoke 2:30am on sunday aug 10th with 3 really intense contractions that left me shaking and i had jon call our midwife dhayna. but oddly after those contractions things never progressed steady or strong. when dhayna arrived at 4am i measured 6 centimeters and she said "you could have this baby in a half hour", but i did not. she could feel that the baby was not in the correct postion and she suggested going to the hosiptal after 12 hours of trying to get things progressing. but at the time i just could not concede and we sent her home hoping that things would just pick up naturally later.
i awoke at 5am and i honestly i felt the baby get "engaged" (really interesting feeling).
then i was slammed into labor, funny enough i had been wanting for weeks for labor to begin, but this rocked my world.
the contractions were so intense, it was like going from 0-100 miles per hour and i was wishing for it to stop.
in no time i was telling jon that we had to go the hosiptal. i was thinking this is happening so quick and our midwife who lives 1.5 hours away would of not made it. also i was being really overwhelmed with the pain and told jon that i wanted an epidural (although i know enough about birth that i was too far along to get one).
so we drove off to the hosiptal picking up our neighbor along the way.
when we arrived to the hosiptal (less than 15 minute ride)i was ready to push.
i could "deal" by this point and really held off in the urge to push cause i was really trying to get a grip and surrender into what was happening and i did not do this gracefully. but eventually the urge got strong enough and annalee came barreling out and tearing me up along the way.
our hosiptal experience was actually great. they were so kind to us. really we were luckily. annalee shoulders were stuck which is a complication i know our extremely experienced midwife could of handled but not jon and our good neighbor carrie. plus i had lots of bleeding and heavy tears and most likely we would of ended up needing to transfer and i would of really hated that.
so all in all it was totally not what i expected and i wish i could have had myself more together but labor is one of those things that have a true life to itself and it is not something we have that much control over.